well, my aunt got laid off today. she had known it was a possibility for a while now, but it was still a shock. and it sucks. big time. posted at 5:52 PM |  

crap, i have to go to work tomorrow.

i guess today is my last official day of "bumming around". i'm happy in some ways, but sad in some ways too. i don't want to wake up early. i don't want to sit at a computer all day. i don't want to feel tired and go to sleep early. am i whining? i don't mean to. i'm thankful that i'll have a job (for a few months at least). it's just that it'll take me a while to adjust... posted at 11:49 AM |  

i've decided i don't like my haircut. or actually, it would probably be more accurate to say that i don't like my hair and how it responds to certain haircuts. it's just fluffing out too much and i feel like a mushroom head. i think i need to buy one of those straightening things...or at least a different type of brush...a big flat one maybe, i don't know. i've just had a lot of bad hair days over the past year...i should learn how to fix it... posted at 12:35 AM |  

i just watched the new episode of trading spaces...i cannot belive they put that woman's picture up in the living room!!! that is the most embarrassing thing i have ever seen in my life. i'm guessing none of my readers saw it, so to explain further...well, this woman had an...um, interesting picture of her...not wearing much clothing...get the idea? it was in a drawer in her bedroom, and the designer went sneaking in there and found it. and well, he decided to blow it up - and i mean, really blow it up (i think to 18x24). and then he hung it up over the fireplace in their living room!!! she was a bit in shock about that when she saw it, but seemed to handle it reasonably well. i would have been mortified if that was me though. posted at 1:23 AM |  

boy, i babbled a lot in my friday five...i'm feeling so restless and talkative today...don't know why...

i got my haircut today. it's up above my shoulders now. feels short. there's something about losing a lot of hair that makes me feel all lightheaded and giddy. i seriously think that the lady who cuts my hair is losing her mind though. i mean, i didn't want to say anything to her because she's such a sweetheart and i've been going to her for about 10 years. but...um...she didn't even part my hair before she started cutting it! doesn't that seem odd? usually she parts it right after she washes it. you know, so it'll be even on both sides...guess it slipped her mind today. i didn't really notice until she was blowdrying and it was still unparted. i didn't even know she was done with me when she handed me a mirror. it looks ok, but i don't know. usually she spends more time making it look nice, and she's also usually really picky about making it even...so it was weird how she was today. i think she was preoccupied. she doesn't do a good job when she's not concentrating. i think i'll hurt her feelings if i start going to someone else though. posted at 6:10 PM |  

this week's friday five:

1. What are your hobbies?
uh...well, what types of things are considered hobbies? because sometimes people call things 'hobbies' but other people don't consider them to be hobbies at all. you know what i mean? like, i blog in my spare time, but does that mean blogging is a hobby? i don't think so. i usually think of hobbies as being related to arts/crafts or outdoorsy stuff or um, objects...sorry, am i avoiding the question? i just think i'm too boring because i can't think of any real hobbies that i have. i think i've started several potential hobbies over the years, but never felt passionate or interested enough about any of them to keep at it, you know?
anyway...lately, what i've been doing is arranging all the family pictures we have into albums. we have quite a lot and they've sort of been thrown all over the house because no one really cares (except for me) and no one really looks at them (except for me). but i've taken that on as my project. just a project, meaning temporary, not a hobby.
oh, and i also started doing yoga again, but i don't consider that a hobby. just something that makes me feel good.

2. Do you collect anything?
again, i've started random little collections over the years, but nothing i'm crazy about. i had some stamps and coins from different countries, some cool shells/rocks/pebbles i've found here and there, stuffed animals and dolls from when i was a kid, um...t-shirts, playbills, stuff like that. but nothing i really seek out and preserve and put on display.

3. Is there a hobby you're interested in, but just don't have the time/money to do?
it's not that i don't have the time or money, it's that i'm lazy. and unmotivated. um...i would like to get back into photography (looking over all the old family photos mentioned above, i have concluded that i am the only decent photographer in the family). i actually learned how to use a darkroom and everything, but that was several years ago. and i would also like to do more arty stuff in general...i used to draw and paint and stuff...even tried pottery once (but i kinda sucked at it). um...is traveling considered a hobby? because i want to go everywhere. and that's something i probably don't have the time and money for.

4. Have you ever turned a hobby into a moneymaking opportunity?
nope. i did make a gift out of some of the pebbles i collected though. i made them shiny and painted little eyes on them and glued them on a big flat rock to make a little rock family...you know, those kinds you can buy at little souvenier shops? it was cute. really. i could totally sell those for like, a dollar.

5. Besides web-related stuff (burbs, rings, etc.), what clubs do you belong to?
none. in high school, i was in art club and some environmental thing...then in college i was just in nerdy honor societies...we mostly volunteered to do stuff with little kids, so that was fun. i attemped to join some clubs while i was in grad school, but most of them met on weekday evenings, and i happened to have classes on weekday evenings, so it was inconvenient. i didn't have much time to get involved anyway. i should probably join some sort of club now...but i don't know...how do you find random clubs to join when you are in the real world? and clubs that you can show up to alone? i hate it when people join clubs with a bunch of friends and then stick with them and don't bother talking to anyone else!!! (a little pent up frustration there) posted at 5:17 PM |  

by the way, i know i've been really quiet lately, not blogging as much nonsense as i usually do...i've had stuff on my mind, but nothing that i could really put into words. mostly feeling worried about a lot of people and things...this job that i'll be starting soon - i have absolutely no idea what i'll be doing. i don't think the people who hired me know either. so...just feeling some uncertainty about that, about what's expected of me. and i've been worried about some friends...sean in particular seemed ready to explode the last i heard from him...i had this dream last night that he got really sick and passed out...scared me enough to wake me up from my sleep. oh and my aunt (the one who lives with us) is fairly certain that she'll be laid off soon, so she's really stressed...she'll have a very difficult time finding another job, and even if she does find one, she won't get paid anywhere near what she's currently getting. things are so tough right now...everyone's in a bad mood and either jobless or feeling as though they are soon to be jobless...kinda depressing, you know? posted at 1:32 AM |  

i think conan o'brien and martha stewart should have a show together. i mean, martha's show is too boring to watch because she's such a freakin perfectionist, but when conan's with her, he totally messes with everything and irritates her...it's just so funny... posted at 12:58 AM |  

i'm starting to feel a little better now...still not 100%, but much better than how i was feeling over the weekend...i hate being sick!!

anyway, i start work on may 1. so i have about a week to recover and start waking up early... posted at 6:46 PM |  

i need to download that software that stops pop-up ads from popping up. it's getting worse and worse...makes me want to move to a new URL again. at first i thought this one only had a small banner at the top...but then the banner ad got bigger and i got more and more pop-ups...big ones...ones that take over the whole screen!! very annoying. i'm sorry about that.

anyway...i didn't go out to lunch. felt really sick most of today. i don't usually get colds that last this long...kinda odd. but anyway. another person couldn't make it for lunch today either...and i didn't really know most of the other people who were coming...so, no big deal. i'll see amy some other time. i hope i feel better soon though, because being sick sucks. posted at 1:28 AM |  

i've been feeling so left out lately...have no idea what's going on with some of my friends. make that most of my friends. all of my friends?

i'm not sure what i'm trying to say...i just want to be involved more in other people's lives. does that make sense? i get so sick of thinking about myself all the time...i want to know what all my friends are doing, what's troubling them...i want to help them if i can, but at the very least just be there for them and listen. and i am - i mean, i do try to be. but it seems like no one really shares anything with me these days. i'm not hurt, i'm just curious, you know? feeling like a stranger...

anyway...i'm super tired and need to go to sleep. supposed to go meet some people for lunch tomorrow but i don't know if i'm feeling up for it. damn cough won't go away. and my body's sore. i'm so exhausted...i really, really want to sleep in late tomorrow...but if i want to be on time i gotta wake up by 9:30...i'll see how i feel in the morning. posted at 1:01 AM |  

this week's friday five...because i did it last week and thought i should continue...

1. What's your favorite TV show and why?
right now, i'm hooked on alias. usually i prefer comedies, but alias is so different...i don't know...it's creative and suspenseful and has an interesting story line. in second place is the osbournes because ozzy and sharon crack me up.

2. Who is your favorite television star?
um...i like the girl in alias (can't recall her name right now) because she kicks ass. well, i guess that's her character, not her. um...ok, bill cosby and michael j. fox, because they're funny...

3. What was your favorite TV show as a child?
it's hard to remember which was my favorite....i watched the cosby show, family ties, growing pains, who's the boss, punky brewster, webster, different strokes, cheers, full house, perfect strangers...i really don't remember which i liked best...

4. What show do you think should have been cancelled by now?
that show with elaine from seinfeld...watching ellie? or has that been cancelled already?

5. What new show do you hope escapes the axe this season?
i don't think i watch any new shows that are in danger of getting the axe...but i know the osbournes might not go on for another season because of money issues, so i hope they work something out. posted at 3:19 PM |  

well, i got offered a 6-month "apprenticeship" for $3000/month. they're basically going to see how it goes and then decide if they want to hire me for a permanent position after that. sound ok? i agreed to it, mostly because i have no clue whether or not that is a reasonable offer...and well, considering i've had 0 other interviews...i figure i better take what i can. actually, i wouldn't even call this an interview because he didn't ask me anything - well, he did ask me why i didn't stay at michigan for my phd, and i didn't want to tell him it was because the program sucked (because he had just gone on and on about how the similar program at columbia sucked and told me that he wouldn't even consider hiring any master's students from there). so i told him it was because it was too cold there. stupid answer, i know. i couldn't think of anything else to say at the time. anyway...boy am i glad i didn't go to columbia now! i sorta see where he was coming from and why he was hesitant to hire me...i mean, i wouldn't hire most of the other students in my program at michigan...i really think i am good at what i do though, so hopefully i can show them that and they won't regret trying me out.

anyway, the "interview" took all of 5 minutes and he didn't really have anything else to ask me about. so, i took off and went to visit one of the professors i worked for while i was an undergrad. she was really surprised to see me...it was cool, she's so nice...we sat and talked for a while. then i went to my cousin's "office hours" - she told me no students ever came, so i thought i'd keep her company. then i wandered around the CS department looking for old TA's...the one i had a big crush on wasn't in his office : (

i think it'll be nice being back in berkeley...i'll move back there to my old place when my cousin graduates at the end of may...then i can walk to work! yay! i hate driving. i was sitting in traffic today on my way there thinking i should have BART-ed instead. anyway. i guess overall i'm just relieved to have found something to do with myself...hope it works out alright... posted at 1:14 PM |  

random greetings always cheer me up - thank you dan : ) posted at 1:06 AM |  

i'm confused about whether i should go tomorrow or reschedule...i don't feel sick sick, just have a slight cough and a stuffy nose...it's only really bad at night and in the morning when i wake up...but will it look bad if i'm blowing my nose and coughing in the middle of the interview? it's kind of embarrassing sometimes, you know? like when you're talking to someone and your nose starts running...i'll take some tissue with me, but still...i sound totally ridiculous right now, don't i?...*sigh*... posted at 3:33 PM |  

i still feel sick...last night was really bad, couldn't sleep because i kept feeling like i was choking...thought i was going to throw up at some point. i hate it when that happens. posted at 1:07 PM |  

it got postponed again!!! now i'm meeting him on friday morning...a few more days of waiting....*sigh*...in a way though, i'm glad because i'm not feeling too good today. i hate it when my throat's messed up... posted at 1:57 PM |  

i think i'm getting sick. my throat hurts and i feel yucky...have that meeting tomorrow at the non-profit in berkeley...i hope it goes ok...i really don't know what he wants to talk to me about...i hope it's not like a real interview because i don't feel prepared to answer questions...and i don't feel prepared to ask any questions. i always feel so stupid when people ask me if i have any questions, and i want to have something to ask, just to show that i was paying attention and thinking or whatever, but i never have anything to ask about! hard to make up something on the spot...anyway...i don't want to think about it right now. feel shitty, i should go to bed and get some rest. and think positive thoughts. posted at 2:04 AM |  

i spent most of yesterday at my relatives' place...one of my cousins has a huge stick up her butt...it's kinda funny because she can't stand my mom at all (that probably goes both ways but my mom doesn't show it as much). anyway, they want us to take a little "family vacation" with them this summer. i don't think it'll actually happen though. i can't imagine spending a week with them. i doubt that my cousin would put up with my mom either. i see nothing good coming out of this idea at all...

anyway, i don't know why i was freaking out so much yesterday morning. i think i went to sleep really tense, had a weird dream, then somehow woke up feeling really paranoid. it really wasn't even a big deal at all. i was just feeling a bit out-of-it...ok, very out of it.

ok, i gotta go read the recap of last night's alias episode. as much as i love that show, it's so damn hard to understand sometimes. but that noah guy was really ugly, so i'm glad he's out of the picture now. posted at 3:06 PM |  

nevermind. i found it. (i thought my mom had taken it because i couldn't find it, but now i did, so...i guess she hasn't seen it after all and i was freaking out for no reason, as usual) posted at 11:19 AM |  

i think my mom might have found something that i reeeeaaaallly didn't want her to see. it's totally freaking me out. she hasn't said anything, but...uh, well she may have hinted a little bit...or maybe that's my overactive imagination...but anyway...i'm really tense right now. it's stupid, i know...but i'm just driving myself insane wondering why i left it in my car like that, i should have hidden it somewhere!!!

god i sound like a 12 year old.

seriously though, i don't know what to do!!! i may be over-reacting a tad, but...i just wanted to keep it private, you know? i'm not one of those people who tells my mom everything. i'm just not. posted at 10:12 AM |  

so i went to my friend's engagement party tonight...my cousin didn't come and so i got a bit bored, but it wasn't too bad. i met this one really friendly girl there and we stuck together all night. and i left early - a bit before midnight. i think some people there are still dancing away right now. i refuse to bhangra in public though. i just feel silly attempting to jump around with my arms in the air. it looks fun, sure. but i don't know. if i ever feel the need to blast some bollywood tune and bhangra my heart out, i'd do it in the privacy of my own home. that's just me.

anyway. i've decided i don't want to deal with all this crap if/when i get married. i'd rather just run off somewhere and elope. posted at 2:17 AM |  

i know it's technically saturday now, but i just felt like doing this week's friday five, since i can't seem to fall asleep...

1. What is your favorite restaurant and why?
that's easy - my dad's, because...it's my dad's! and the food really is good...personal biases aside...i'd have to say chez panisse, because everything i've had there has been wonderful...but i really have a lot of favorite restaurants, so it's hard to say.

2. What fast food restaurant are you partial to?
i rarely eat fast food, but when i do it's almost always mc donald's...

3. What are your standards and rules for tipping?
i don't really have standards or rules that i base tips on...i pretty much stick to giving between 10-15% at average places, and at least 15% at nicer places...i haven't really had horrible service anywhere (not counting places outside the US). so...i don't know, i just give whatever seems right for the particular restaurant, or whatever is convenient.

4. Do you usually order an appetizer and/or dessert?
depends on who i'm with and how hungry we are...if the people i'm dining with want to order them, then we usually share them. if they don't, then i don't. (unless i'm really craving something)

5. What do you usually order to drink at a restaurant?
i like plain old water most of the time...but again, it depends on what i'm eating...with certain food, i need a coke...and a glass of wine is nice sometimes... posted at 2:15 AM |  

i have colored scrollbars now. posted at 12:07 PM |  

of all the stupid online quizzes i've taken when bored out of my mind, i think i am most satisfied with this one:




take the which one of the trading spaces cast are you? quiz!


vern's my favorite. and besides, it's a pretty accurate description of me, isn't it? i didn't even have to re-take the test and change my answers to get that result : ) posted at 5:04 PM |  

my meeting got rescheduled for next tuesday...and so the wait continues...my plans for saturday also got postponed (a get-together with some people from the dorm i lived in freshman year)...i'm invited to a friend's engagement party (well, technically it's an indian ring ceremony) on saturday night, but i don't know if i'll go or not...it's kind of a family-only deal, so i was surprised that she invited me...though i guess she does consider me to be more like family than a friend, so maybe i should go? i don't know. my cousin was also invited, but she feels weird about going...and if she doesn't go, i won't really have anyone else to talk to...these indian things can kinda drag on sometimes...i'll think about it... posted at 1:42 AM |  

i feel a little better now. just got an email from someone i haven't seen or heard from in quite a long time...cheered me up a lot, though he didn't say much. he's one of those people that i'm genuinely glad to hear from, you know? i don't feel that way about a lot of my old friends...i don't know what it is, this guy used to just crack me up. anyway...i'm just really happy to hear from him...i needed that... posted at 1:00 AM |  

i'm going through one of those phases again...dissatisfied with life in general...can't sleep at night, feel bummed out all day, keep thinking about people and things that i shouldn't be thinking about...

i wish i knew how to get myself together, how to fix everything that's wrong with me...how to comfort myself instead of trying to seek it from other people...

i tell myself that things will be better when i start working...but i don't know...i feel like i've said that all my life - in high school i told myself things would be better when i got to college...then a few years later, i told myself things will be better when i went to grad school...and now...fuck it, things never get better. just the same shit over and over. i don't know what to do... posted at 4:28 PM |  

ever feel like blogging, but just don't have anything to say? posted at 1:07 AM |  

you know, this might be my last week of doing nothing...*sigh*...not too thrilled about having to wake up early...daylight savings has screwed me up enough as it is...i haven't had to wake up early since...um...high school? i guess i had a real job one summer, but i kinda used to roll out of bed at 8:20 because it was less than 10 minutes from where i lived. i guess i'll do the same thing when i move back to berkeley...but until then, i'll probably have to wake up around 7:15...take BART to berkeley...walk a bit...

i'm just not a morning person.

i'm not too thrilled about working at this place really...i mean, it seemed alright, but...it's not exactly what i wanted to do...the courses they design aren't very creative or fun. they are interactive, but...eh...kinda boring...K-12 stuff seems much more interesting than college courses...but i need experience to get a job, and this will give me experience so...i should be thankful, right?

(don't mean to get ahead of myself - i still have to meet with the owner of the company on friday and he's the one who will decide whether or not i will get this "internship" thing there...) posted at 4:38 PM |  

damn aol!!! it won't let me send mail through my michigan account anymore...soooooooo irritating.... posted at 12:59 PM |  

not much to say. feeling "blah" again.

i don't know what it is, some nights i just feel so lonely... posted at 1:40 AM |  

i realized that i never really wrote about my trip to india, and well...i'm really bored today, so i thought now would be a good time to do that.

the last time i went to india was about 6 years ago, and it's changed quite a bit in some ways...there are some freeways now...and a lot of overpass-type roads they call "flyovers". but of course, everytime we went into bombay, we were still stuck in traffic for an hour or two...sucks when the air conditioner in the car isn't working...sucks even more if you're in an auto-rickshaw breathing in nasty fumes.

anyway...they are also starting to get different types of food there now...like italian and mexican...i didn't try either, because i'm sure it's nothing like the kind we are used to eating. but chinese food is everywhere. the indian version of chinese food. just about every single restaurant i went to had 2 menus - indian and chinese. even in the south. i just thought that was strange...

i didn't spend much time in bombay...my mom had gotten tickets to bangalore, and a few of my relatives came along. before leaving, i had figured out where i wanted to go and what i wanted to see...mostly in the state of karnataka, since i thought that's where we would be...but...of course, nothing ever goes as planned. we rented a car in bangalore and drove to mysore, stopping at some of the places on my list along the way...in mysore, we made the mistake of visiting someone that my mom knows from way back...and well, she basically insisted on coming with us and formed her own itinerary...got on everyone's nerves on top of that...and in general, wasted a lot of our time. i was not happy.

the next morning we found out it was bharat bhand - india was closed because of the riots. people were very confused about whether or not the tourist attractions in mysore would be open or not...the driver refused to leave town before evening, so we went by the palace - it was open. after going through the palace, that crazy lady made us drive all the way to kerala, another state even further south of karnataka. it's gorgeous there, but...not where i wanted to go!!! ugh!!! it was a very, very long drive. we first went to visit some of her in-laws in calicut, but there was nothing to do there really. spent the night there (with no air conditioning!!!), then went to cochin the next morning, another long drive. basically spent the whole day in the car. the next morning, we went to see the famous backwaters, then drove even further south to trivandrum. and wouldn't you know it? everything was closed because of strikes. (kerala is a bit well-known for strikes) wasted another day there. then we drove even further south - yes, all the way to the southern-most tip of india, kanya kumari. it was boring there, but we actually got a really nice hotel and i got to take a hot shower and everything!!! i was never so happy to have a hot shower in all my life. ok, i exaggerate. but i really needed it. anyway, so we saw the sunset and sunrise, went to this temple there. just a lot of pushing and yelling. it was so commercialized too...people trying to sell you crap inside the temple...they really pester you too...next stop was madhurai (coming back up through tamil nadu now)...shitty hotel...went to see the famous temple there - i guess it was nice, but not the type of temple i was interested in seeing really. we were all getting really sick of everything by then, so we didn't want to make any more stops. drove through kodai kanal (nothing much there, just a random hill station that's popular for some reason) and reached mysore sometime in the middle of the night.

we finally got rid of that woman...what a nightmare! she was constantly smoking, bitching, and getting on everyone's nerves...and she didn't even pay for anything! we had to get an extra hotel room everywhere because of her...and she ate like a pig! caused a scene everywhere we went...i'm getting pissed all over again just thinking about it.

anyway...on the way back from mysore to bangalore, i asked the driver to go to a temple in somnathpur. it was much more along the lines of what i wanted to see. and not as crowded and touristy as the other temples we went to in the south. so i enjoyed that.

back in bombay...well, i didn't really do much there...had to visit some relatives...do some shopping...i went to visit relatives on my dad's side too, but i didn't get to spend much time with them, so that kinda sucked...my mom was causing problems...i really don't feel like getting into it, but basically she hates them and didn't want me to see them. she got pissed off whenever i went there. and...well, it was kinda embarrassing. i mean, she shouldn't be able to tell me who i can and can't see...but i just have to do whatever she wants because otherwise she gets really bitchy and causes problems...i was at my uncle's one day and i lost track of time...she called and while i was on the phone with her, this little kid was playing around with the buttons and somehow turned on the speaker phone. so basically, everyone heard her yelling at me and saying some really rude shit. i was mortified. she doesn't know that happened, and i don't think she'd care if i told her, but it really, really, really pissed me off. it's one thing when she talks to me in private that way, but for them all to hear...just killed me...and the thing is, my dad's family is so different. i have never heard them yell at each other. they're all pretty respectful of each other and none of my uncles and aunts yell at their kids the way my mom was yelling at me...anyway, it was really bad. i was a mess after that. but we left the next day, so i didn't have to deal with any more of that...

i don't think i'll ever go back to india with my mom again though. posted at 5:27 PM |  

i finally went to see "monsoon wedding" today...i've wanted to see it for a long time...anyway, it was good, but not as good as i thought it would be. well, more specifically, there were certain things about it that i really liked a lot, but i think one of the main storylines (about the girl who was about to get married) could have been a little better...and i don't know, it's like in some ways the movie was really realistic in how it portrayed indian families, but in other ways...i was thinking "that would never happen in real-life!!" it's hard to explain. but anyway...if you want to get a sense of what an indian wedding looks like, then this is a good movie to see. but the shots of the main ceremony are shown in little clips while the credits are rolling, so don't leave early. i didn't understand why they did that - i mean, at the end of the movie it looked like they were dancing and celebrating at the reception, which should be after the ceremony...but whatever... posted at 1:00 AM |  

that guy i met with on tuesday set up an interview for me with the main guy who started the company. they're thinking about giving me a 4-month internship, and then after that they'll decide if they want me to work there for-real. i guess that's better than nothing...i'm a little concerned about him calling it an "internship" because that sounds like they'll probably pay me next to nothing...but then again, i don't really have anything else to do...anyway, the interview's next friday...we'll see what happens... posted at 5:45 PM |  

i feel like such an idiot when it comes to all this job-hunting/interviewing stuff...i don't know...i mean, i read somewhere that i'm supposed to send a thank you note after an interview. and although yesterday wasn't really an interview, i thought i should send a quick thank you email at least. i never know what to say in these things, hope it sounded ok. anyway. oh and i showed up like 10 minutes early yesterday, which i think was kind of wrong because he was in the middle of something...i just didn't want to be late, and sometimes it's hard to find parking in berkeley, so i wanted to make sure i had enough time...but i should have walked around the block or something...*sigh*...oh yeah, and it doesn't help that i've gained so much weight that i can't fit into any of my nice clothes...really have to do something about that. i don't feel as confident when i know i'm not dressed well. not that it mattered much at this place, i mean it's berkeley - most of the people there were in jeans, and one girl who works there had pink hair and a nose-ring and typical punk clothes...but anyway. i just feel like i should have dressed nicer and been more professional...i feel so young and clueless sometimes, it's irritating. posted at 2:01 PM |  

so...i *think* i may have gotten myself a job. on a trial basis at least.

here's the deal (oh and by the way, it wasn't the same guy i had the class with). since last week they've gotten 80-90 resumes from people interested in this job. but according to this guy i met with today, almost all of those applicants had a background in corporate training, not in education. and the few that did have a background in education did not know math. (right now they are desiging software for math courses only) so although they are looking for someone with a lot of experience, my background matches up so perfectly that the guy thought it would be a good idea to have me work there on a trial basis...assuming he can convince the other people to hire me. i'll have to go through a lot of training...and they won't pay me much...but i think it'll be a good place to work. it's only like a block from campus, so that's nice. anyway, i should know in a few days... posted at 1:09 AM |  

i'm heading to berkeley in a little while to meet with that guy at the non-profit. i'm kinda paranoid that i might know him. well, not really know him, but...well, during my freshman year of college, i had to do a group project (ugh) in one of my classes, and there was this guy in my group...he was a super-senior at the time...anyway, things didn't go too well on that project (though we did get an A as far as i remember) and he got really pissed at me...i don't remember his last name, but the guy i'm meeting with today has the same first name, and from what my dad has told me about him, it seems possible that they might be the same person...a long shot, i know...but i just get paranoid about these things...

anyway...

sean finally wrote back - i think he's moving to west virginia now. doesn't seem too thrilled about it, but i hope it works out. posted at 1:57 PM |  

nevermind, i fixed it. changed the default font in IE to arial. i don't know why any settings in IE should affect how i read my email in eudora, but whatever... posted at 5:24 PM |  

i just downloaded IE 6.0...just for the hell of it. anyway...i don't know if i'm just imagining this, but it seems like that somehow caused the font on my email in eudora to change. i could have sworn it was arial before, but now it's all in times new roman. annoying to read. i have no idea how this happened. is this some sort of microsoft conspiracy, to get people to use outlook instead? grrr...i want my eudora to go back to normal. any computer geeks know how i can do this? i tried going to the font settings in eudora, but it didn't help. posted at 5:17 PM |  

i'm worried about sean...he seemed really depressed in the last couple emails i got from him...i don't know what happened really. he seemed too down to explain. but i just want to know if he's ok, and it's driving me nuts that he hasn't written... posted at 3:10 PM |