the oscars = lord of the boring

ok, it wasn't that bad...there were some funny parts (the jack black-will farrell song, adrien brody)...i was just hoping sofia would somehow get a surprise win for best director...would have broken the monotony a bit. plus, i think she did an amazing job directing lost in translation...but, i admit i haven't seen any of the 3 "lord..." movies. i've been told many times that i should, but...it's just not my thang.

as for the real reason i watch the oscars (the clothes), um...when did trains and big bows on the butt come back in?? trains were ok on some dresses...maybe a little too long on others. big bows i could have done without...overall, i think most of the dresses were nice, but there was nothing spectacular and different that made me go "i LOVE that dress!".

the only dress i really, truly hated was uma thurman's i think...and what was up with liv tyler's hair? i didn't quite get it.

loved a lot of the earrings though. posted at 11:00 PM |  

sometimes i just wish so much that i had someone to go to when i'm upset...

i do tend to come and blog about things instead, and that can help in some sense...but other times...i don't want to say anything, don't want to talk about it or write about it, i just want to be comforted. and it sucks not having anyone who can do that. posted at 12:46 AM |  

my cover letter is greatly improved, but still nowhere near ready to go out...and i haven't even started fixing up my resume...

i'll get it out by sunday night. i have to. posted at 1:37 AM |  

i still haven't finished writing my cover letter for that job...so pathetic...i'll try tonight. i've just been in one of these unable-to-concentrate-on-anything funks...i've hardly done anything at work all week...i'm actually kind of amazed at how little i do there sometimes...

i try to let myself relax and meditate a little while i'm doing yoga, but i haven't been able to...it's like my mind is always on something else. it's much easier to clear your head when you're in an actual yoga class, as opposed to being on your bedroom, lying on whatever space you can find among all the clothes and junk on the floor, trying not to bump into furniture, looking for the remote control, getting annoyed with the upstairs neighbor for being loud, etc...

but hey, i've stuck with it anyhow...even if i can't get the full benefits by relaxing my mind, at least my back muscles are moving around a bit. that's a good thing. posted at 11:56 PM |  

i feel really, really exhausted today...

didn't sleep much last night - combination of upstairs guy and the big storm. electricity went off and on about 3-4 times...my tv makes a noise whenever it happens, so i woke up each time. plus, i was paranoid that i wouldn't wake up if my alarm didn't go on in the morning, so i had to keep resetting my clock again and again...

started feeling really dizzy and uncomfortable at work in the afternoon...don't know if it was lack of sleep, lack of food, or if it was somehow brought on my me being really annoyed with the bitch. she's just so damn snippy...for no reason at all...she wanted me to email her my homework sets so that she could email them to someone else to proofread. i tried to explain to her that i didn't have a complete set to give her because i've been working on 5 of them at the same time, and all 5 were partially complete. so she got pissed at me for whatever reason and ordered me to send her whatever i have. she likes bossing me around. such a 5-year-old, i swear...

i don't even really understand why they have to go through her...i mean, i have the other person's email address, so i can email them to her directly. and get any mistakes/comments from her directly. and fix them directly. why does she have to be the middle-man? i know if the bitch sees any of my sets, she's going to find 10 millions things to criticize. the other day, i read her about 5 of my problems, and maybe 2 or 3 of them had either the number 3 or the term 3x in them. so she had to make a comment about that...give me a fucking break...i can point out the same thing to her in her problems...oh, but when she does it it's ok because she's the queen of the world...

i hate her, i hate her, i hate her....uuugghhh!!!!!!!! posted at 7:06 PM |  

he's playing "hey ya" again. someone help me....

it was so nice and peaceful all evening because he wasn't in...but he just got in a while ago, and my god, what a difference. i don't understand how one person can be so loud... posted at 10:41 PM |  

i haven't watched average joe much at all this season, but i watched for a little while tonight...all i have to say is, that show is cruel. it was just really, really mean having that guy watch the girl make out with that other guy...poor thing...i mean, it's one thing watching it on tv months later, after he's gotten over her (to some extent at least). quite another to see it as it's happening, when he still has feelings for her and thinks things are going well. it was just sooooo fucked up... posted at 11:03 PM |  

you know, it's really annoying when endings to certain tv shows are given away in headlines...like, for example, there are some of us who didn't get to watch sex and the city last night because we don't have hbo (yes, that would be me). so, it really pissed me off when i inadvertently read a headline somewhere that basically ruined the ending! (or at least, i'm assuming it did.)

they don't do this with movies...so why is it ok to do it with tv shows?!?! posted at 6:37 PM |  

i feel like i'm in another one of those crazy emotional phases where stupid things make me want to cry...

i have to go to this wedding in florida in a couple months, but it looks like i'm on my own as far as flying there and back...my cousins are all flying from their respective colleges since they'll still be in school, and my dad, step-mom, aunt, and uncle are all planning on making a big vacation out of it...going to bermuda or something like that...

it's not that i have issues flying alone - i've flown alone many times. it's just that it's such a long, boring flight...can't even get a direct one, the shortest one i've seen is 7 and a half hours, but most are more like 9...and...like, what if no one's there the day that i get in? i'll be stuck all alone...or what if everyone leaves the morning after the wedding, and my flight isn't until the evening?...no, i won't die being on my own for a day or a few hours...i am a grown adult and everything...it's just that...it sucks...

hate being stuck alone. i feel like i'm always the one left out of everything. posted at 1:20 PM |  

back to work tomorrow...it's so depressing : (

found a cool job i want to apply for...wanted to write up a letter tonight, but i got distracted...i'll work on it tomorrow. anyway. i don't think i'm quite what they are looking for, but it sounds interesting. and there's no math!! it's at the academy of art...would be a good change for me. i really haven't intentionally sought out jobs involving math, but i always seem to get stuck with them, probably because of my math background...and when everything on my resume screams out math, it's hard to get a job involving any other subject matter...so i really want to do something totally different now. and art is about as different as i can get. plus, i really love art, so this would just be a fun thing to do...getting to learn about art as part of my job...it's what i've always wanted really...in one of my grad courses, we spent each week on a different subject matter, and my absolute favorite week was when we covered art (well, art education i guess). the software we used was very cool, and i really had my heart set on making software like that...but then i got stuck with this lousy job and have gotten way off track...not that this job i'm applying for is any more on track...in fact, it probably isn't. but my point is, i really want to do something that's not math-related, just to have some experience on my resume that shows that i'm capable of working on diverse projects, as opposed to just math. think it would open up more opportunities for me in the future. posted at 1:53 AM |  

basketball team stinks...can't believe we lost again...but honestly, i'm glad we don't have the type of players that usc does...some of those guys (the cravens especially) make me sick. and the pac-10 refs suck beyond belief. can't believe some of the calls they made. or didn't make in some cases. seriously...when a guy takes 2 or 3 blatant swings at another player, he needs to be taken out of the game. i'll be really pissed if he doesn't get suspended for that... posted at 1:12 AM |  

i've been totally unproductive and lazy tonight...

wow, that last post sounded really cranky, huh? i get irritable when i don't get enough sleep. speaking of which...i should probably go to bed and try to fall asleep before upstairs guy gets in. i'm just in this weird mood - don't want to go to bed, because when i'm lying there, i start thinking about things, and i don't want to think damnit, i just want to go to sleep!!! posted at 1:59 AM |  

stupid upstairs guy - i woke up 3 times last night. 2:30 (walking back and forth, throwing things on the floor, opening and closing drawers for a good 20 minutes), then at 4 (running. yes, running. in his bedroom.), then at 7 something else woke me up, but i heard him up and walking around while i was trying to go back to sleep. the guy is just nuts.

and while i'm complaining, the bitch at work is still on my list as well. she used office money to buy snacks for the office, but is hiding them in her desk, so that she can selectively hand them out to people that she likes, rather than make them available to everyone, even though office money is supposed to be spent on stuff for everyone in the office. fucking bitch. i don't even know what this special snack is, but i hear people talking about how good it is when she gives them some. it's so fucking rude - i mean, i'm sitting right there, but because she's facing my back and because i have headphones on, she thinks she doesn't have to offer me any? fuck her. i don't want any of her special snacks anyway. i hope she gets fat from hoarding all of it - her ass is too small for her big head anyway. posted at 8:15 PM |  

sean finally wrote back...he said i was right and apologized....apparently his computer died and that's why it took him so long...anyway, i feel a little better knowing that he is sorry, but at the same time, i don't think it was enough...i feel like i need a little more from him this time, and i told him that. it's so hard to explain how i've been feeling...mostly, i just have a hard time understanding him, why he is the way he is...so when i pour my heart out to him, and all i get in return is "i'm sorry", it just doesn't quite cut it, you know?

and yes, i realize that he's a guy and it's hard for him to say more than that because he probably doesn't know what to say or how to say it...but i don't know...i just think he needs to at least try and make an effort this time, considering how hurt and upset i was... posted at 7:12 PM |  

our basketball team went back to sucking again. oh well. posted at 10:05 PM |  

so tired...back and shoulders have been killing me all day too. just want to go to sleep early tonight... posted at 7:09 PM |  

seen on a bumper sticker this morning:

If only men were as satisfying as chocolate. posted at 12:38 PM |  

just wasted at least half an hour trying to escape this room. i was successful, by the way. (i don't think i would have been able to sleep at night without figuring it out.)

if anyone wants to try it, i highly recommend making a note of where you found things, because i re-started it a couple times and totally forgot how i did some things...although, restarting really doesn't help much, so maybe you shouldn't bother after all...just be patient and click around a lot. posted at 12:22 AM |  

he keeps playing "hey ya" over and over and over. what the hell is his problem??? 40 minutes of non-stop "hey ya". posted at 12:00 AM |  

great...upstairs guy is blasting some music right now. just what i needed. posted at 11:21 PM |  

electricity went out twice in the past 20 minutes or so...maybe i shouldn't have turned the computer back on...oh well.

i hope this weather calms down. i got soaked walking home today. it wasn't raining that hard, so i thought i'd be fine. but, i didn't realize how windy it was...

anyway...i have a headache. posted at 11:06 PM |  

i've decided to try to get back into the habit of doing yoga when i get home from work...my body's just been way too tense lately, i can tell when i try to fall asleep at night. i don't know exactly what it is that is making me so tense, but the yoga should help loosen me up a bit. i spent about 20 minutes doing some this evening, and i feel better already. i just need to buy some easier tapes because...um...i'm not as advanced as i used to be (in other words, i'm really out of shape).

but anyway, i'm proud of myself for doing it today. and although i doubt that i'll be able to jump back into doing it everyday, i think even 2-3 times a week would be good. get me back on track.

of course, whenever i've tried to start doing my back and arm exercises again, i've given up after a week or so. i'm hoping it's just because those exercises are boring and don't make me feel all good and relaxed in the way that yoga does... posted at 7:27 PM |  

just slacking off again. i think it's too early to leave. although, i'm really tempted to get out of here. posted at 5:10 PM |  

don't have anything in particular to say...just bored at work. i have stuff to do, just don't feel like doing it. rainy days like this, i just want to be curled up in bed with a book or something... posted at 2:21 PM |  

i'm gonna have a hard time falling asleep tonight...sleeping in until noon for 2 days in a row will do that to me.

no holiday for me tomorrow either. stupid job. posted at 1:48 AM |  

sometimes when i'm watching alias, i just want to scream out "i knew it!!!"...the little bombshell that they're (probably) going to drop in the next episode, i figured that out during the first season!!! i mean, they've hinted at it several times...i was wondering when it was going to come up...anyway, so now i'm excited to see what kind of twist they throw in, and i am sure that there will be a twist...isn't there always?

i love the show...i just hate it when abc makes us wait for 2-3 weeks between new episodes...drives me nuts! it's so hard to keep track of the storyline as it is... posted at 11:51 PM |  

well, so much for that good feeling i had...we lost : (

the first half was fun...just didn't play as well in the second half. stanfurd's defense may have had a lot to do with that. plus we got into some bad foul trouble, and that definitely hurt us. sometimes refs will let em play, other times, they're blowing the whistle every 3 seconds it seems. tonight, it was the latter. a lot of questionable fouls, in my opinion. but anyway...we just have to play harder for the rest of the season now, can't afford to lose more than 1 game really...but regardless of how this season turns out, i have high hopes for the next couple years. i really like how the team's coming together overall...hard to be pissed at them for losing tonight. posted at 10:30 PM |  

really excited about the game tonight...i can't wait! i feel really confident about us winning. don't know why...just a good feeling...GO BEARS!! posted at 2:31 PM |  

so glad it's friday. been a long week...i'm tired : (

i know that job was a long shot to begin with, but it's really kind of depressing to be rejected. why don't they want me??? i mean, i know i don't have much experience, and i know i said some things that i shouldn't have, but damnit, can't they see how great i am?? (just being whiney, ignore me)

i think i would have done a great job, if they had hired me. but whatever...the search continues... posted at 7:15 PM |  

heard back from stanfurd - no second interview : (

no big deal...the job wasn't as interesting as i thought it would be anyway. and like i said before, i didn't really want to work down on the farm.

but it sucks not being called back. posted at 11:37 AM |  

i don't know if it's because valentine's is coming up or what...just finding this whole thing with sean really hard to deal with. i don't want to be mad at him. i don't know what i want...i get so confused and depressed whenever i try to come to terms with things...just wish he would say something... posted at 7:43 PM |  

i've eaten a lot of candy tonight. don't know why, i'm not really much of a candy-eater (chocolate is another matter). i just wanted something sweet tonight...i've been feeling really unsatisfied with most food lately. i really need to learn how to cook something that i actually like eating. no, more than like - love. something i won't get sick and tired of... posted at 10:17 PM |  

it's only wednesday? this week is going so slow...

my boss brought his dog in to work again. and of course, my boss was hardly in the office. so, here's this dog roaming around getting bored out of his mind, wondering where his daddy is...why he's in this strange gray place with cubicles and computers everywhere...why no one will give him food or take him out for a walk or play with him...i feel sorry for him, really. it's just kind of annoying that i have dog hair all over me. he'll come over to me when i'm sitting at my computer typing, and just stick his head under my arm and set it down on my lap and look up at me (he's a big dog, if i haven't mentioned that before) with these sad eyes. i don't know what to do with him. i'm not an animal person...this one time today, he also put one of his legs up on me and wouldn't let me turn away from him. so i said to him (and my god i felt odd talking to him), "what are you doing? i have to work.", which apparently he understood because he left me alone after that.

but anyway, it's just sad. i mean, he was still wandering around the office when i left, and there weren't many people left at that point. he saw me going to the door and thought i was taking him out. poor guy. i had to get someone to distract him so i could leave.

have i mentioned how itchy i am?

i want to take a shower. and get out of these clothes. he slobbered all over me when i came back from lunch. i'm guessing he was hungry and smelled some food on me. i seriously don't know what my boss is thinking when he brings him in and leaves him with us... posted at 7:00 PM |  

just realized i missed the a cappella quarterfinals! i was so determined to go this year...totally forgot about it. it was here in berkeley 3 days ago : (

oh well.

i also missed out on will hung's performance. downloaded it though...pretty impressive that he made entertainment tonight! and hey, you know you've hit the big time when someone on snl does an impression of you. posted at 10:41 PM |  

sorry about the maps disappearing, if anyone cares...long story...kept getting error messages when i was trying to publish last night, thought it never got published, deleted the entry, republished, then found out today that it did get published the first time, but not after i deleted it...so what i'm saying is, oh nevermind... posted at 6:56 PM |  

think i'm gonna have this song stuck in my head all night. don't say i didn't warn you. posted at 8:10 PM |  

work was boring as usual...i hardly did anything. i wonder if they notice how slow i'm going...the bad thing about using word is i have to save the damn file like every 30 seconds, or else i lose my work. seriously. everytime i write an equation - even just one line - i have to save the file. otherwise, it gives me some weird error message about the disk being full or too many files being open...i don't know...it's irritating. i'm not in the habit of saving that often. i know i should be, but that's besides the point.

anyway. no word from stanfurd yet. i don't exactly remember when they said i should expect to hear back. i think they're still interviewing people though.

no word from sean either. i'm starting to miss him. part of me feels like saying screw it, i'll tell him i'm ok now. other part of me is still really hurt and stubborn and doesn't think i should say anything until i hear from him. thing is, i don't have a clue as to whether he is completely annoyed with me, or if he feels sorry that he upset me. i can see him going either way. i just wish i knew what he was thinking... posted at 7:01 PM |  

i actually enjoyed most of the grammys this year. think the performances were better than they normally are. or maybe i was just happy to see the white stripes. prince opening was cool too. and sting's roxanne. could have done without the usc band though - can't stand them. i'm also a bit beyonced-out. but anyway. not a bad show overall...

it's getting late and i have bills to pay. have to go back to work tomorrow too - never a good thing. posted at 12:17 AM |  

another HUGE win for the bears...we're in 2nd place!! am i dreaming?!?! the stage is all set for beating stanfurd next week.... posted at 4:18 PM |  

i'm really tired tonight but i don't feel like going to bed...want to do something, i just don't know what. posted at 12:57 AM |  

i hardly ate anything at dinner. and i hardly said anything. i don't really know why i was there. ended up going back to my relative's house afterwards and hanging out there for a while too. i was totally bored and about to fall asleep, when someone brought up american idol for some reason. the guy who's house we were at had never even heard of the show, and a couple other relatives had heard of it, but had never seen it and didn't know how it worked. anyway, i was explaining it to them, and then i really perked up when i told them about my favorite audition. seriously, i go watch his video whenever i'm bummed out. gotta love the guy. posted at 10:21 PM |  

i somehow got talked into going to dinner with some relatives tonight. but, i don't really enjoy the company of these relatives. and i also don't like the restaurant they're eating at. and i'm not even hungry yet because i ate a huge burrito for lunch. so i don't quite understand why i'm going...i think i was just too tired to say no or to think up an excuse for not going.

anyway. i showed up to work super late today - must have been past 11. i was really tired this morning. then stupid bitch got all bitchy with me about the size of multiplication dots. she just irritates me - i mean, there's a nice way to say things, and then there's her way. i wish she would just mind her business and stop looking at whatever i'm doing. i'm tired of her and her stupid princessy attitude.

gotta go to that dinner now. posted at 6:49 PM |  

alright...now as for the interview...i think it went fine. i think i answered some questions really well. but of course, there were a few times when i wanted to take back my answer right after it came out of my mouth. anyway, the people there were really nice, and i felt pretty comfortable. they said i should know by next week if i made it to the second round of interviews or not...i expect that i will make it, but i'm not 100% sure. there are some key areas where i have absolutely no experience - leading teacher-training workshops, dealing with parents, etc. and of course, i don't have a ton of experience working with kids. but i think i got the point across that i would like the opportunity to do so...anyway, it's up to them to decide if that's good enough. there seemed to be a lot of applicants, and i'm sure some of them are more qualified than i am...so...no big deal if i don't get a second interview. i think this was definitely a good experience for me regardless, just because it'll make me more prepared for any future interviews that i might get.

the idea of moving to the south bay kinda depresses me though. and the idea of working at the farm depresses me even more. god, i hate palo alto. posted at 11:15 PM |  

i'll get to the interview in a minute. first, i want to say:

CAL BEAT ARIZONA!!!!!!!!!!!

excellent, excellent win for the bears. i'm so pround of them! they're finally coming together and playing with heart...with confidence...i mean, they haven't beaten arizona in like, 5 years! it was just a great game. i don't think they trailed at any point - started aggressive and stayed on top all night. cool as ice with the free-throws at the end too. i'm just so happy to see them play like this!! hope they can make it 3 in a row this saturday! posted at 11:03 PM |  

i have all this nervous energy inside of me...feel totally unprepared.

went to my chiropractor this morning, so at least i'm a little less tense now. it was funny, he was telling me that i shouldn't be so rigid at my age...my body was just so unwilling to allow him to move me around. takes a while to get my muscles to relax. i'm sure it was worse than usual today. i actually think i slept with my jaw clenched because my teeth felt really weird when i woke up this morning.

anyway...i've got about 3 hours. i'll be ok. posted at 11:51 AM |  

i don't understand how i can have so many clothes and yet feel like i have nothing to wear.

i have a couple suits, but...i don't know, people here don't seem to wear suits much. and the job isn't at a company really, it's at stanford. on campus. i want to look nice, but not over-dressed. once, someone came for an interview at my office wearing a suit, and they didn't hire her because they thought she was "too corporate" for us. (ok, that's probably not the only reason they didn't hire her, but they made fun of her and just thought she was way too professional for us.)

my point is, i think i'd feel uncomfortable wearing a suit for this particular interview. but everything else i have is...well...i dress like a college student, i'll put it that way. i need to start buying clothes that are a little more put together. but i know i'd hardly ever wear them, and my closet is over-flowing as it is...

anyway, i'll figure something out in the morning. i really need to get to bed. posted at 1:06 AM |  

my interview is tomorrow afternoon...i have absolutely no idea what i'm going to wear. i also don't know how to prepare for it...i'm really bad at spitting out good answers on the spot, so i know i need to think of some potential questions he might ask me and come up with answers ahead of time. but, i really don't have a clue what he'll ask.

i looked at some of the demos they have online - they're really bad. might even be worse than my current company's stuff. but in case they ask me what i think of their stuff, i can't tell them it's terrible, can i?

anyway...i took the day off tomorrow. hopefully that will give me a little time to prepare...

posted at 7:34 PM |  

work is getting to be a real pain in the ass...everything's such a mess, it's crazy. today they told me, 'this is how you're going to do it' - so i don't have a choice in the matter. have to use word, then copy and paste into photoshop. sounds simple enough, but trust me, it isn't. on top of them telling me this is how i have to do things, they also changed all the fonts we're using. from arial 9 to arial 11. i then pointed out to them that it would look totally weird because all the variables and equations (in times new roman 12) would be too small in comparison. i suggested they switch to arial 10, or change the equations to size 13. i have no idea why i am the only one in the office picky about font sizes and getting things to look good...i mean, shouldn't our graphic designer be involved in all this somehow?? more importantly, shouldn't all this have been decided like, before i started working on it?? i've written 100+ problems before these changes - what's going to happen to them? they're gonna be all screwed up with the font size changes, so i won't be able to just take screen shots like i planned. so annoying...

on top of that, doing all this stuff in word and photoshop is so much more time-consuming for me. and because we're so far behind schedule, the bitch is helping out with the homework. so all day today, she was complaining non-stop about this whole word to photoshop process...and she's used to doing the stuff in word because that's what she normally uses. so i'm sure it'll be even worse for me...except i'll try to figure things out myself when i get stuck rather than yelling out "someone come here and help me!!!", which is what i heard about every 10 minutes today.

fun, huh? posted at 11:42 PM |  

long day.

sean called in the morning and asked if i was still mad...i was running late for work though and he had a meeting to go to, so i told him that i'd talk to him later. and unlike him, i actually mean it when i say that. so, i called him back during my lunch break...and i don't know, he kept saying things to try to make me laugh or talk, but i was quiet, unresponsive...i guess it just bothered me that he wasn't asking me what was wrong or why i was upset...i mean, he knows that i am upset, and he was still talking to me as though everything was normal...it felt like he was just ignoring the matter or not taking me seriously. which just made me even more frustrated with him...he started to say something like "you know i had to leave, things were really crazy" - as if he thought the reason i was mad was because he left the bay area and went back to DC, but he had no choice in that matter, so it wasn't something i should be mad at him about. anyway, after a few more minutes of me being silent, he told me that i could email him instead since i was having so much trouble talking.

i wasn't sure whether or not i would email him...didn't exactly know what to say...but a couple hours later, i decided that i'd feel better if i did try to say something. so, i wrote him. explained that i was really hurt by some things he said and did...told him that i was tired of feeling that way...that i wasn't sure if i could put up with it anymore. i did write some not-so-nice things about him too, most of which i deleted later. (i didn't want to be harsh and let my angry side take over...i just wanted to let him know what was going on with me.)

other than that, just kinda left it up to him - if he wanted to talk or email, or just give it some time...i wished him good luck on a job interview he has, and that was pretty much it.

no response yet, and i'm not going to hold my breath.

but for some good news: he's not the only one with an interview lined up. yes, that's right, yours truly has landed an actual interview for an actual job! after how many years of applying?!?!? this will technically be my very first real interview, so i'll probably fuck it up. but it's nice to have the opportunity to interview. it really is. a step in the right direction, i'd say. (don't get me wrong - i'm not satisfied with just an interview. i'll try to do my best and actually get this job, seeing as how long it took me to even get this one interview!) posted at 7:42 PM |  

finally got around to emailing that relative of mine in india who recently adopted. she got the baby 2-3 weeks ago, and we sent her some clothes and vitamins and stuff...but i really felt bad that no one had actually said anything to her. i know i had mixed feelings initially, but all that doesn't matter - she already made the decision, and this child is now a part of our family, and i plan on treating her just as i would if she were her biological child. so anyway, i wrote a few nights ago and congratulated her and all that, and she just emailed me back - absolutely thrilled that i emailed. i could tell it meant a lot to her...i got the sense that she's been really hurt by other family members' reactions, so getting this really positive note from me seemed to cheer her up. and i feel good about that. posted at 12:37 AM |  

i had no idea that what happened at the end of the half-time show was an 'accident'...i thought janet had a pasty on and it was all planned...i mean, what the hell did justin intend to happen? i don't get it...although, janet did look a little surprised. hmm...maybe he was only supposed to take off the black part of her outfit, but somehow a piece of the red bra came off too? i don't know, it was just odd. posted at 10:48 PM |  

superbowl turned out to be alright. thought i was going to fall asleep for most of the first half, but i enjoyed the end, despite not really caring all that much who won the game.

and my period started (or is attempting to start) so that will relieve some of the moodiness and chocolate cravings. and hopefully the zits too. hormones are such weird things. posted at 10:02 PM |