lost was good tonight...but alias had a better cliff-hanger. i hope it leads into a more interesting storyline next season. this season really just didn't seem well put-together. i don't know. i was disappointed.

as for lost...seems like there some things that i probably didn't notice but should have. that's where the internet comes in handy. i love the show though.

anyway, it's late. i feel like i'm dozing off in front of the computer. lots to do tomorrow too. posted at 2:47 AM |  

i'm so frustrated with my eyebrows. i specifically told the lady i don't want too much of an arch (because this particular lady always gives me insane arches), and she said ok, but what did i end up with? the same arches, only thicker than normal.

grrrr. i hate them.

i would have had a different lady do them, but this one came up to me when i walked in. so i couldn't say "no, i don't want you. i want her." - i'd just feel too awkward. they take it personally sometimes, you know?

anyway, i gotta see if i can repair these somehow... posted at 6:17 PM |  

the mouse finally got caught late last night. i should probably leave a trap out, in case there are more of them around. actually, i should probably leave a trap out permanently... posted at 1:03 PM |  

feeling kinda bored. i'm sure there's stuff i should be doing, but i'm not in the mood...

i found out that my grandma intentionally skips all her medication one day every week. just to see if anything happens. i freaked out when she said this. i told her not to do that anymore, but i know she's not going to listen to me. it's bad enough that she doesn't follow the directions and that she takes all of them at the same time instead of spacing them out...*sigh*...i get so frustrated with her. did i mention that, when her doctor first prescribed her some cholesterol-lowering medication several years ago, she never took them at all? the result being a heart attack. why am i the only person who is concerned about things like this?

she's visiting this week...for a cousin's wedding. it's one of those awkward situations where we know they don't really want us there, but they're obligated to invite us because we're family...and we're all going because...hey, a free meal! ok...not really. though that is part of it. i just hope my mom doesn't walk around and start doing stuff during the ceremony, like she did at the bride's sister's wedding a few years ago. long story. my mom just needs help in learning how to sit still and let other people take care of their stuff. especially when the other people don't like her and don't want her to get involved. yet for some reason, that just encourages her to go overboard and try to take even more control of things. anyway...it should be interesting. we'll see what happens. posted at 5:52 PM |  

the mouse just darted across my kitchen and scared the shit out of me. proof that it is not confined to the cabinet/drawer area.

this sucks.

and i'm too scared to go back in my kitchen now. ever since i first heard it that one night, i've avoided going in there this late. but i was really hungry tonight...and now i'll pay the price. i'll be tossing and turning all night, wondering where it is and what it's doing.

i'll set up another trap tomorrow, outside the cabinet. but i wonder if the traps i have are too small. i know they can usually squeeze into small holes, but what i saw tonight looked kinda big.

anyway, it came out from under my refrigerator and went to the opposite side of the kitchen, near its favorite cabinet. i pretty much ran out of the kitchen at that point, so i don't know where it went. i'm a chicken, what can i say? i know it won't hurt me, and i know it's probably more scared of me than i am of it, but i just don't want to be around it. i'm a girl and i just can't deal, you know? i wish i were half as un-girlie as my mom is in this regard. she'd be totally calm and probably just get it inside a shoe box somehow and take it outside. and she'd laugh at me for being so scared of it. hell, i'm scared of so many things. always have been. i need to grow up... posted at 1:59 AM |  

stupid mouse. still hasn't gone into the trap, but it did leave another cough drop wrapper in the cabinet. i emptied out the drawer yesterday, so i'm guessing it's hoarding a bunch of them somewhere.

i need to move. posted at 12:11 AM |  

this mouse in my apartment is driving me nuts. a couple weeks ago, i totally cleaned out the cabinet i heard it in and set up a trap in there. i keep checking everyday, but no mouse. but today, when i looked in the cabinet, i saw some bits of paper and a cough drop, partially in the wrapper. i'm 99.9% sure i had totally cleaned out everything in the cabinet, and my cough drops are all kept in the drawer just above that cabinet. so now i'm thinking the mouse is in that drawer. and i'm too chicken to open it. i hate this.

update: i peeked in the drawer, and it's clear the mouse has been in there a lot. i'm so grossed out right now. mouse poop everywhere! damn, it really likes those cough drops. fuuuuuck. i haven't been sick in several months, so i never had a reason to open it. and now that i have, i really don't feel like cleaning it up. so disgusting...and what's really gross is, that drawer is right next to the drawer where all my eating utensils are. *praying the mouse hasn't found its way in there*

update #2: fuck, fuck, fuck. it WAS in my utensil drawer. am i totally blind?!?! there are scraps of cough drop wrapper in there. why didn't i notice this before??? i'm so completely grossed out. i've never seen any poop actually in my utensil tray or on any utensils, i'm sure i would have noticed that. but there is definitely some behind the tray and on the side...i'm just completely speechless. don't know what to say. just keep cursing out the thing. wherever it is hiding. i wonder if i should move the trap from the cabinet to the drawer. and put a cough drop in it. it also likes nyquil and tylenol. i would get stuck with a druggie mouse... posted at 5:39 PM |  

just had a little phone interview. started out really well, but then i think i somehow fucked it up. the guy was kinda tough - maybe because he's french and didn't give me all the fake american bs i'm accustomed to. he went right out there and said "i'm judging you based on the questions you ask me so you better have something more specific to ask." which put loads of pressure on me and make me kind of uncomfortable...coming up with questions to ask the employer is always so hard for me. there's one that has gone over well with other companies, but it was totally unapplicable for this particular job. so i asked stupid, generic questions. and didn't sound very convincing as i was asking them.

oh, and he also said that he expected more out of me because he had called and left a message for me yesterday, so i had a whole day to prepare. (my cell battery had died, and i have a tendency to plug it in and totally forget about it for several hours, so i didn't actually get his message until the evening.)

he also asked what i've been doing these past 5 months. i just hate that question.

i really, really, really need more practice. i suck at this... posted at 12:09 PM |  

someone at stanfurd has an email address that is very close to mine (one letter difference), and i've all of a sudden gotten so many emails that were intended for her. i guess there was some sort of deadline recently and people are emailing to check on their applications. it's just strange that this person isn't using her stanfurd email address for official stuff...

anyway. is anyone else in the bay area annoyed with alice (the radio station)? why are they playing usher? i'm confused...switching back to kfog.

i've had this tv for over 4 years, but i just now realized that it has FM radio built in. not that it matters, i have 2 other radios. but i just think it's weird that i never noticed. posted at 3:54 PM |  

i'm still here. just been feeling really brain-dead this week. and typing coherent sentences all of a sudden felt like a lot of work. i can't really explain what's going on in my head anyway. just not feeling good about myself right now. posted at 10:05 PM |  

the job search is making me want to cry. i just get more and more confused as time goes by. i'm not even interested in half the jobs i apply for. at the same time, i honestly don't know what other kinds of jobs i can do. it's like i'm waiting for some miracle. i should probably have some sort of back-up plan in place, but i don't know what... posted at 11:57 PM |  

aargh. i just applied for this job today - a 2-month thing with a start-up. and the guy just wrote back and said i was "too senior". damnit! posted at 11:27 PM |  

just found out another one of my friends is getting married...i now have 4 weddings to go to over the next 8 months. this is nuts. posted at 5:16 PM |  

other than not having a job, you know what's depressing? finding out how much money other people are making. i just found out tonight that my cousin's starting salary is going to be almost $80,000. damn, that's a lot. i knew she'd be making more than me, but i didn't realize it would be THAT much more...

and yet, i'll still only get $7 gifts from her family. go figure. posted at 12:51 AM |  

on the amazing race tonight (i don't think this spoils anything), i really cracked up when kelly asked to borrow lipstick from the woman at the ticket counter. actually, it was more pathetic than funny...i just don't get girls like that. i know she's on tv, but come on!

i think this surpasses my previous choice for most pathetic-funny scene this season: the gay guys yelling "turmeric! turmeric!" (thinking they were saying "fast! fast!") to taxi/auto drivers in india. typical ignorant american thing - just because j's are pronouced as h's in spanish doesn't mean they're pronounced as h's in all other languages too!! i've heard my last name pronounced weird so many times because of this... posted at 10:57 PM |  

coupling's not on every night anymore : (

i'm so sad now. i'm convinced it was the reason i've been falling asleep so easily lately. because it made me laugh and put me in a good mood before i dozed off. now what will i do? need to find a funny book i guess...

crap - i've got a mouse in the kitchen again. why me???? posted at 2:05 AM |  

i can't believe it's may already...scary how fast these past few months have gone by. i really need to work harder to find a job...i feel like i'm not doing enough...and that i get frustrated too easily. posted at 10:56 PM |