i've been on upstairs guy's schedule since sunday. that is, going to bed at 3:30 and waking up around 11:30-12.

it sucks.

and i think it's really rude that he has taken showers at around 3 am the past two nights, when i have specifically asked that he not take showers after 2. it's not like he's out late and that's the only time he can take showers. he was home all night...he could have easily taken one earlier. or gotten up before noon to take one!

whenever i go up there to talk to them, they seem all nice and quiet and concerned. so i get overly nice and don't yell at them because i start to feel bad...but, this is just getting to be too much. and it pisses me off that they are basically ignoring my requests.

aside from the bathroom issues, the guy is just super-fidgety. at least, that's what it sounds like. he can't sit still for 5 minutes in the middle of the night. i constantly hear this noise - not sure what it is, but i think it's him tapping on something. he also keeps opening and closing drawers. more than any normal person would need to, believe me. i can't imagine what is in those drawers that he needs to be opening and closing them so many times at 3 am...anyway, i can't even complain about things like that because i'd sound crazy. but, it's very irritating.

anyway...so i'm tempted to compain to management, at least about the shower issue. but i know that it won't help much, even if he does stop showering so late. because the showers only last 10 minutes or so anyway. it's other things that are keeping me up for hours...*sigh*... posted at 12:40 PM |  

ack. i'm stupid...

someone from the company i've been interviewing with emailed this morning and asked what my hourly rate was. i had never thought about fixing a rate for myself...i just assumed they would tell me what they could give me. anyway, so i was confused about what to write...i ended up telling them what i'm being paid at my current job. the thing is, i don't think i would leave this job for another job at the same salary! but i didn't know how to say that. isn't that generally understood???

anyway, so then she wrote back and said that my "fee sounds great" - great for them, because i'm cheaper than they thought??? like, damn i might have just screwed myself out of more money...i don't know how to fix this now.

i just don't know what an appropriate rate would be for the work they want me to do...and i'm always too scared of asking for too much money. but asking for too little is just dumb. but i really don't know what a good medium would be...*sigh*... posted at 1:21 PM |  

haven't been in the mood to work today. i'm terrible...

i think i'm just really tired from yesterday. woke up really early yesterday morning, but tossed and turned for an hour late last night because of upstairs guy. then i slept in way too late this morning because my body refused to get out of bed...and i've pretty much been yawning all day.

i should go out and get some air. maybe that'll wake me up. posted at 5:20 PM |  

went to a wedding tonight...it was really boring...we snuck out a split second before the bhangra started. though i guess that might have been the least boring part of the wedding. depending on the music selection. and whether or not the bride's father would have done something funny on the dance floor, seeing how he was totally drunk before the reception even started.

i had a good time hanging out with my cousins and a friend that i haven't seen in a while. i don't know the bride very well...our fathers were really good friends ~30 years ago, and we probably saw each other from time to time as little kids. but we never really became friends...anyway. i didn't even talk to her tonight...i'm not sure how i even had an assigned seat, because i didn't rsvp or anything. but i'm glad i decided to go, despite getting bored out of my mind at times. i'm thinking that if people decide to give speeches at my future wedding, i'd like to have some guy start playing music to cut them off - like how they do at the oscars. wrap it up! posted at 11:33 PM |  

feeling a bit overwhelmed with work. my manager's going on vacation for 2 weeks, and i have a bunch of work to do while she's gone, but it'll be hard without her input. this is the first one i'm doing from scratch (well, not totally from scratch, but from word documents that the author made). the last one i worked on, i was mainly just editing and making changes to pages that were already formatted. it's a lot more work now that i actually have to do all the formatting myself. especially because the author crammed so much stuff on each page that i can't possibly fit it onto one page using our template.

and aside from that...the woman who wrote all this (a teacher) didn't do a very good job. it's pretty terrible actually. i want to change the wording everywhere, remove some questions, change the order of some parts...but i don't know if i am allowed to. i'm assuming i should wait until my manager gets back and we have a chance to go through everything together...it's just frustrating right now, because i have to format things that don't make any sense to me... posted at 7:32 PM |  

the interview went pretty well, i think. it seems like i just have to wait for them to figure out where i could fit in and what type of work i'd be best-suited for. i think i may have accidentally given them the impression that i would definitely leave my current job if they gave me a full time job. really, it depends on how much they'll pay me and how long the contract would be. my current company just extended my contract with them for another 11 months, so i don't think i'd want to take anything shorter than that unless they were paying significantly more...

anyway, we'll see...

"lost" starts tonight! yay! i was watching crap all summer, so i'm glad the new season is starting... posted at 5:06 PM |  

have an interview tomorrow...same place i had a couple phone interviews with recently. they asked me to bring in some of my work, and i have no idea what to take for them. first of all, i don't have much to choose from. second...none of the stuff i do have is really all that great.

anyway, it's getting late and i need to go figure all that out right now. quickly though: i saw jonny moseley today! i was totally confused...like, what the hell is he doing walking around here, 2 blocks from my apartment? then, wait - why is he wearing a backpack? i'm confused...maybe he's just trying to blend in so he's not so noticeable? quick google search and i found this. i had no idea he was going to school here! pretty cool. (and i admit, i was one of those people who thought it was silly to have him as a commencement speaker. i take that back now. hell, he can do it again as an alum!) posted at 11:38 PM |  

had to go to the office this morning, then went from there to my mom's place to eat and take a break. anyway...it was really hot out and i had a headache, so i just stayed there all afternoon. just got back to my place now and realized i left all my work at my mom's! i knew i should have left all my stuff in the car...don't know where my head is today. posted at 6:50 PM |  

uc davis: 20, stanfurd: 17

ha ha...go aggies! posted at 12:43 AM |  

back from the game...we played like crap in the first half, but came through in the 4th quarter. i was annoyed because security wouldn't let me (and a bunch of other people) sit in the student section like we normally do. even though it was half empty at the start of the game. they added more people to make sure none of us snuck in. but then they left in the middle of the 2nd, so we all went in then anyway. so stupid. ok, i know we should technically be sitting in the seats we paid for, but they don't have to enforce it so thoroughly! i mean, as long as there are enough seats for us to spread around, what's the big deal? posted at 5:58 PM |  

gawd, i hate this. they are so loud upstairs. the thing about living under male college students - they play video games all freakin night. it's super, super annoying.

i might need to crash on the couch tonight. and it's so cold out there in the living room : ( posted at 1:01 AM |  

i think the phone interview went well...i'm actually being considered for a third position now - might even be full time. in which case, i'll have to think about whether or not i'd want to leave my current job...ideally, i'd like to do part time work for both places...because i do like what i'm doing now, and i especially like the fact that my manager and i are totally on the same page (at my previous job, i felt like i was on an entirely different planet most of the time).

on the other hand...the person i spoke with today said that a lot of people have worked their way up in this company (her included), and that this particular job would be a great way for me to get my foot in the door. and that appeals to me because...well, i don't really see any opportunities for promotions at my current job.

anyway, i'll find out more when i meet with them in person. posted at 1:22 PM |  

the guys upstairs seem to be in a loud mood tonight. it's irritating...and i'm so sleepy already - was kept up until a little after 3, then woken up again at around 4...it makes me want to cry sometimes. i don't even know what to tell them...some people just don't get it. posted at 11:17 PM |  

have a phone interview tomorrow...some possible part-time contract work. which i think i should be able to do in addition to my current job. unless the work load picks up a lot. i don't want to overload myself...

i had actually applied for a full-time job, and i had a phone interview for that last week - but it was one of those impromptu, early morning, "let's call this person and see if she can talk right now" things, which i generally screw up because i'm still half-asleep when they call. not to mention totally unprepared. but later on, the person who interviewed me asked if i might be interested in doing something else for them instead, part time. so...i figured, why not? doesn't hurt to hear more about it anyway. and i think it's a good idea to get involved with as many projects as possible, just because the more people i work for, the more contacts i will have - either to use as references or to help me find a job in the future.

i'll see how it goes tomorrow. i'm just concerned about all of a sudden getting a ton of work to do for my current job...i've been taking it really easy so far, and it's been nice...but then again, i don't want to be lazy - i could use the extra money. posted at 5:24 PM |  

it's so cold today...feels more like november than september.

i finished all the work that i had. i'm still waiting for one more file though. and there are probably some more changes that need to be made to the ones that i just finished. i'll have to wait for my manager to get back to me...i get so tempted to go ahead and edit stuff and make changes that i think are needed...but i know i should probably only do what they ask me to do...

i wonder when i'll get my paycheck. i gots bills to pay and wedding presents to buy and...well, i've gained weight so i need some new jeans that i can actually breathe in. i hope i fit into my indian dress - have to wear it to a wedding in 2 weeks. it was already pretty tight when i wore it 3-4 months ago.

must...start...exercising. *groan* posted at 5:25 PM |  

booked my ticket to go to india in december...i'm going to be there for 3 weeks...which i'm sort of unsure about...wanted to go for about 2 weeks. but i didn't really have a choice in the matter. well, ok, i did have a choice, but i didn't want to fly alone (it makes the 20-something hour trip seem like a 40-something hour trip).

anyway, i hope the people at work won't mind. i feel weird asking them now, since i'm not yet under contract past the end of this month. i assume i will be, and i hope i will be, but i don't want to act as though it's a given. i don't think i'll get any paid vacation regardless, so if i take a long vacation, i just make less money that month. which is fine i guess. but i just worry about deadlines and meetings and stuff like that...i don't want to put them behind schedule.

aside from that, the main question is, will my stomach hold up for 3 whole weeks? my threshold seems to be about 2 weeks. last time, i think i was there for 17 days or so...and those last few days were not so good. but, at least i didn't throw up and/or get a fever. i was proud of that. i'm such a weakling... posted at 7:17 PM |  

spoke to one of the guys who lives upstairs...the note i left for them before had blown away, so they never got it. anyway, he's completely oblivious of the fact that his roommate is even up past 2 am. seemed pretty confused when i told him that i hear people as late as 4:30 or 5. he's probably fast asleep on the other end of the apartment (lucky him).

i'm seriously contemplating sleeping in the living room. if only it weren't for all the construction they're doing on that side of the building... posted at 5:40 PM |  

i feel so happy when cal wins...was a little nervous about this game, but it was smooth sailing after the 1st quarter. the only problem is that the running back (probably the best player on the team) broke a finger. that's not good. i hope he doesn't need to miss too many games... posted at 4:13 PM |  

went over the lesson with my manager this morning...i just hope i'll be able to remember all the changes we decided to make. i didn't take very good notes, so i'm a little worried that i'll get confused when i'm working on it. both of us got really confused this morning when we were just looking at it. anyway, there's no way it's getting done by monday, but i'll work over the weekend and try to aim for tuesday...

didn't get much sleep last night. i had one of those nights where all these thoughts start running through my head for no real reason...memories, feelings, a song that i hadn't listened to or thought of in years...they kept me tossing and turning for a while. but now that i think about it, there was a time when i had nights like this very often. it doesn't happen anywhere near as often now. i take that as a sign that things are actually starting to settle down, that time does help... posted at 10:54 PM |  

work is giving me a headache right now...they decided to move all these pages around and change the order of some sections, without really looking closely at those pages. and now that i've rearranged everything, i see that there are pages that now make no sense at all because they refer to things that come later on. and i don't know what to do about it - i don't know how much freedom i have to make changes and to put things where i see fit. it's just getting stressful because i'm supposed to have it all done by monday. i'm going to the office tomorrow to go over things with my manager...i hope she can help me straighten everything out. i've got a feeling i'm going to end up spending most of the weekend working though... posted at 6:35 PM |  

been totally disgusted by how things are being handled down south. i don't even know what to say about it because i just can't believe how fucked up the whole situation is, but after hearding barbara bush's comments tonight...god, that made me mad. typical of the bush family i suppose. interested to see how they'll put a spin on it.

but anyway.

yay to the california legislature. boo to ahnold who will probably veto tomorrow morning because he is lame and weak and stupid like that. be a man, ahnold. posted at 11:27 PM |  

i'm getting so sick of my upstairs neighbors. i left a nice little note for them on saturday explaining that i've had a hard time sleeping since they moved in, but they haven't really gotten any quieter.

i can adjust to going to sleep at 2:30 because that's when they get quiet, but then i don't want to be woken up at 5:30 in the morning! (which is what happened last night, and a few times before that) arrrrgggh. it makes me so groggy.

and it's not just that they're disturbing my sleep. they're just so loud in general. i get very irritated when i am forced to listen to other people's music while i am trying to watch tv. constant pounding in the background, you know?

i don't know what to do. i feel like i always get stuck with the loudest people in the building living on top of me. posted at 1:21 PM |  

back from the game...kind of disappointed...i mean, we won easily (that was expected given the opponent), but we didn't look very good. lots of kinks to work out. especially with the quarterbacks - plural. serious issues at that position. i have no idea who will start next week. the best one out of the three that played today may have broken his ankle. the #2 guy looked like shit, and i don't think he completed a single pass. the #3 guy wasn't even a qb last year. but he threw a couple nice ones. it should help that we get two of our starting wide receivers back next week (they couldn't play today).

anyway...i'm no longer sure we'll win the 9 games i expected...it's all kind of up in the air until the qb situation gets straightened out. but everyone else looked good.

spotted AD on the sidelines (his hair is hard to miss). and the green day half-time show was cool. and the opening day attendance record was broken, yet again. so, had a good time overall...hopefully they'll play better next week. posted at 6:20 PM |  

ha ha...oklahoma SUCKS! posted at 12:56 PM |  

got a mass email from sean today...he got a really good job. i'm happy for him, i guess. i just hate those damn mass emails. i know he doesn't have the time to write the same thing to everyone individually...nor does it really make sense to do that....but it just feels so impersonal.

anyway...i think i'm going to take the day off today. (i love how i can just decide to work whenever i feel like it!) i really need to clean my room. posted at 12:50 PM |  

not feeling too well today...didn't do any work. just took a lot of naps. i had a bunch of errands i wanted to take care of today too...hopefully i'll feel up for it tomorrow.

i should try to get some work done now that i'm out of bed. wanted to get as much done as possible before football started. because i tend to waste a lot of time once football starts...i'm so excited though! less than 48 hours til kickoff! posted at 6:34 PM |