yay for apolo! he's so cute... posted at 1:17 AM |  

can someone tell me how i can open hqx, bhx, and mim files (in windows), without having to pay for any software? my head is too tired to look it up, so i'm relying on any computer-geek types who may read this. i was going to try downloading the trial version of winzip but i don't know if that'll work and i don't want to waste time. posted at 1:04 PM |  

i don't know why i'm still up. probably because i've been up this late all week and my body's confused. or because i took a nap pretty late this evening. anyway. i don't really have anything to say. i just put up a few more india pictures here. totally out of order, but i had some bandwidth left so i figured i might as well use it.

i should go to bed. i'm just feeling kinda bummed out. for no reason in particular. i've been occupying my brain so much with work, work, work...so when i'm sitting here not working, i start thinking about all the things that i've been avoiding thinking about. if that makes any sense. (it's 4 am, ok?) posted at 4:01 AM |  

figure skating was pretty boring...especially when i already knew the results! but aside from that, no real memorable performances. and what bugs me about the new system is that everyone ends up doing the exact same spins and spirals...only some do them better than others. i miss michelle : ( posted at 12:00 AM |  

damnit.

i just went on the nbc olympics site to look at the tv listings, and i think i inadvertently saw who won the gold. i mean, i couldn't avoid seeing it. the picture was right there on the main page. why the hell do they have it up already? shouldn't there be a link, you know, with the word SPOILER somewhere?

i'm pissed. posted at 5:24 PM |  

job #2 was only supposed to be 10 hours a week. but lately, it's been about 17 hours a week. the extra money is nice, but i feel like i'm neglecting job #1 sometimes. i'm not good at balancing the two...

oh well. i'm doing the best i can...just need a break sometimes. i really wanted to stay in bed all day today because i felt like crap when i woke up this morning. ended up working only 3 hours, but it still feels like i worked 8. that's how tired i am. posted at 7:22 PM |  

it's so COLD.

i know you people from the east coast or midwest or up north will think i'm crazy. but this is cold for california, ok? and it was near 70 degrees last week, which is making it even harder to deal with anything below 55 now... posted at 12:44 PM |  

i wish i could just type in all these 0's and 1's without actually looking to see if the damn tests were graded correctly or not. i think i'm too anal for this job. initially, i was just typing in the numbers without paying much attention, but then after a while - once i had gotten familiar with all the answers - i started noticing correct answers being marked wrong, or certain answers would be given a point on some tests, but not on others...just so much inconsistency. it bugs me. but it's also slowing me down. i don't know how much all this matters...i debate with myself over it - whether i should just put my blinders on and only look for the big 0's and 1's that the graders put on there instead of looking at what the kids actually wrote...it's just hard for me to do that.

on a side note, if my manager saw how i've scattered these tests all over my room, she'd freak. i wish i could be anal when it comes to keeping my room neat and organized... posted at 2:05 AM |  

cal beat arizona! woo-hoo! go bears!

i feel asleep during men's figure skating though. i wasn't crazy about plushenko's program, and the points he racked up kinda took the fun out of the whole thing. i didn't like his short program either. yeah, he can jump. he can probably do quads in his sleep. but whatever. no one really wowed me - lysacek was good, but no quad? and weir? what happened to him? gotta go big or go home, guys. posted at 11:50 PM |  

work seems to be never-ending these days...just when i think i can relax for a few hours at least, i get bombarded with email and new files to work on...i'm tired...*sigh*... posted at 6:41 PM |  

been having trouble falling asleep lately...figured i might as well stay up and finish some work i have due tomorrow. i feel like i'm in school again. and i don't mean that in a good way.

anyway, i pretty much got it done - there was a big mix up, so i kind of had to re-do some work that i had already done in january, but i only had 2 and a half days to do it. fortunately, i was able to copy and paste a good portion of what i had done before...with some minor tweaking. still, there are probably some little things that'll look weird - it's times like this i could really use a mac.

i want to take a day off now. but i have a deadline on friday for job #2, and i also have some other work to catch up on for job #1 since i put it on hold these past 2-3 days to fix that other stuff...i don't mind having work, but sometimes it just piles up and i don't get time for anything else. or i'm just so distracted by it that i forget to do things...

anyway, it's getting really chilly so i think i'm going to go curl up in my bed now. posted at 3:22 AM |  

zhang and zhang were pretty amazing tonight...i didn't think dan would be able to continue, much less land all those jumps as well as she did...

switching sports, i also thought kelly clark was awesome - too bad she fell at the end there.

anyway, work is still a bit crazy...and me being glued to the olympics is not helping matters... posted at 11:45 PM |  

just heard about michelle kwan withdrawing...what can i say? my heart sank.

i saw what happened to her in practice, but i didn't want to accept the fact that it could be serious...just kept hoping that all would be well in time for her short program...*sigh*...i'm a bit in shock now i guess.

it's all just so sad...i hate it when stuff like this happens. watching her skate was the one thing that i was really excited about - this olympics, as well as the last 2. (hell, i even wished they would have had her skate in '94 instead of that other crazy bitch.) i can't even explain it. i'm just very depressed now. and i know i'm not the only one - i even saw the reporter's eyes get all teary when he was reading the story.

i know gold medals aren't everything, and i know michelle will mean a lot more to figure skating and to most of us fans than friggin' tara lipinski ever will (sorry, couldn't stand her), but it just sucks that after all she's been through this season, that she won't even get to skate. i can't imagine how she must be feeling...

you know what? i hope she's all good to go by the world championships. it ain't the olympics, but it's something. i want to see her go there and kick ass and go out on top. posted at 12:50 AM |  

feeling a bit burnt out this week...too much work. it's feast or famine, i guess.

anyway, the cal basketball team is looking pretty good. i hadn't watched a single game this season, until tonight. beating stanfurd is always fun. it feels like it's been a while. it's also been a while since we've been in the tourney. not to jinx anything, but it'll be fun if we're in it.

i'm also super excited about the olympics starting...just wish i didn't have a ton of work to do this weekend...i have a feeling the TV is going to interfere with that. it's weird - like, there are certain olympic sports that i don't think i'd care about, but when they're on, i suddenly get addicted.

alright...debating whether or not i should attempt to do some work now. since i should probably try to get as much as possible done before the weekend...*sigh*... posted at 12:51 AM |  

the sucky part about working for a research lab...i now have millions of 0s and 1s to enter into excel (students' pre- and post-test scores). fun, huh? you know you want my job. posted at 3:07 PM |  

crap. just saw a mouse in my pantry. caught one this weekend, but i didn't know there were more...i guess i should have assumed there were more...damn it!!! i hate mice. posted at 2:17 PM |  

i hate how my brain sometimes gets fixated on things (or people) that i really don't want to think about. drives me nuts. seriously - i feel like a crazy person. i know it'll pass in a day or two, but until then...i just really don't like how i get. not that i've ever *done* anything totally insane. it's just these things that go through my head sometimes...

i wish i could just let go. posted at 2:22 AM |  

seems like whenever work is slow, i tell myself i'm going to take care of all these other things that i need to do, but by the time i actually get around to doing them, i get a ton of work again. posted at 3:56 PM |  

my grandma's sister passed away earlier today...we knew it could happen any day now, so it wasn't really a shock. it's probably a good thing in some sense, because her condition's been really bad for the past 2 months now, and i hate the thought of people having to suffer for a long time before they pass. my grandma has been feeling really upset about it though, because she wanted to go to india to visit her. i guess some people talked her out of it, but she's really regretting not going now...i think it might have been a bit easier on her if she'd at least had the chance to say her good-byes in person... posted at 1:10 AM |  

i kinda wish i was still jet-lagged...because it was so much easier to sleep through upstairs guy's noise. posted at 12:06 PM |  

it's been a really slow work week...not good...

i suppose i should take this free time to clean my apartment. or go through the 200 or so emails that i got while on vacation that i still haven't looked at...*yawn*... posted at 5:47 PM |