so i was supposed to mail out a bunch of material today at work (for someone to proofread), and i worked my ass off all week (and some extra at home too) to get it done, only to have printer problems. i swear, the printers in the oakland office are so moody. they were driving me nuts. i had some computer issues too. got so stressed out. then i realized it was friday the 13th and gave up completely. told my manager i'd send it out first thing monday morning - from the RC office, where the printers actually work!

(no, i'm not superstitious...just thought the date was appropriate considering how everything was going wrong today...) posted at 6:04 PM |  

found out that the bully was BCC-ing my manager on all those emails last week. she also wrote her a separate email complaining about me not doing everything she asked (read: ordered) me to do. that, i'm willing to ignore, because my manager understands that i usually have a reason for not making some of her edits. but the BCC thing...that was sneaky. i don't like that at all. i feel like she was trying to get me fired! i'm glad my manager likes me...at least, i think she does. she's the one who told me about all this...*sigh*...

anyway, still really busy at work, but at least the bully is on vacation now. she slows things down a lot. i'm honestly more concerned about her hating me now. i don't like that feeling, you know? its hard to work with someone when you think that they are being nice to your face but talking shit about you behind your back. posted at 11:18 PM |  

was watching the live earth concents on and off today...i don't think it was as good as the live 8 concerts - although at least there was no crappy MTV coverage this time (still can't get over how bad it was). melissa etheridge was awesome though. and i love al gore. posted at 11:06 PM |  

feel like crap all day when my allergies take over like this. i did clear out everything that was scattered on my bedroom floor, and i took care of a couple other things that i was waiting to find the time to do. but i would have gotten a whole lot more accomplished if my nose had cooperated...

didn't watch any fireworks. didn't really care this year. it's funny how some years i get a little excited about seeing them, and other years i just don't give a shit. it's always the same anyway...why don't they change them up more? at least use different music... posted at 10:19 PM |  

fucking allergies are making it impossible for me to do anything...how am i supposed to clean if i have to run to get a tissue every 2 seconds???

took a sudafed a couple hours ago, but it hasn't helped at all. if anything, it's gotten worse since then. i should have taken something stronger. will try something else in a couple hours...hate to mix them.

so miserable to spend my day off like this. posted at 3:19 PM |  

so happy to have a day off tomorrow...but on the other hand, when i go back to work, it'll be thursday already - yikes! have a lot i need to get done by friday...i hate stress...

my goal for tomorrow is to try to get my room at least partially cleaned and organized. looking at it now is just adding to the stress. too much chaos. and dust. posted at 7:10 PM |  

i think the bully is mad at me again. she was driving me nuts today. kept sending me these long emails that i couldn't understand, and sounding progressively irritated in tone because i wasn't doing exactly what she wanted me to do. maybe if her edits made any sense in the first place, i would have made them. but everytime i thought i had come up with a good compromise and made things work, she'd find some other thing to nit pick about.

what pisses me off is that we have group meetings where we make the major edits and we all agree to certain things as a group in those meetings. then at the end when everything is done, she wants to make all these additional changes - some are minor things like "bold that word" or whatever. but others are things that may have very well been brought up and rejected by the group in the meeting, but she insists that they be done now. and because everyone else is on vacation, i'm the one who has to deal with it. and it's wearing me out. posted at 6:44 PM |