so my macbook's been acting all screwy ever since i got leopard. it suddenly turned off while i was in the middle of recording something today (my only real purpose for getting leopard in the first place). and the cd drive makes a noise every 2 hours on the dot. and word sometimes automatically resizes itself when i open or minimize other windows.

why are computers so irritating??? remember the old days when they were slow and didn't do much? they weren't nearly as irritating then...

ok, maybe they were. i don't remember.

i have so much work to do...it feels like it's never-ending. and they would never like, prevent me from taking a vacation, but i just personally feel more stressed out when i take time off during busy times. or when i miss important meetings. or when i'm just left out of shit - i feel like other people aren't as on top of things sometimes and are more likely to make mistakes and screw things up when i'm not involved.

but i neeeeeeeed a break. i keep saying to myself that i'll take time off as soon as X is done. but in the meanwhile, project Y comes along, and needs to be done a few weeks after that. so ok, i'll take a break after Y is done. oh, but then there's Z and i need to be around for that whole month to do site visits...*sigh*....what i should do is just take every friday afternoon off. i have so much vacation piled up, that it wouldn't make a dent. maybe i'll start doing that after X is done because i'm way behind schedule on that...

crap, it's 11 already? i need to go to bed. i'm so exhausted... posted at 10:40 PM | 0 comments

on my way home today, i noticed someone on the train with a "hearing dog" - i come across seeing eye dogs often, but i've never heard of or seen a hearing dog. i wonder what they would do. i mean, i can sort of understand keeping one around at home...but why would you need one to get on the train with you? to wake you up if you fall asleep and are about to miss your stop? wait - even people who can hear could use one of those.

anyway. not much going on with me. my mom is still recovering. she's going to try driving this week, so fingers crossed i won't have to be her chauffeur anymore. although, i don't really think it's safe for her to drive with only her left arm...then again, it's probably not safe for her to drive with me either. i'm a bad driver as it is, but she makes me nervous, which makes my driving even worse.

i've been completely slacking off at work. it's terrible. i'm just so uninspired lately.

mac question: is leopard significantly better than tiger? i can upgrade for free - mainly just thinking about getting it to run one specific software for screen and audio capture, but i have something else that will do if need be. i just worry about shit not working. and i don't like change. but if i'll have less problems, then maybe it'll be worth it. i'll be getting office 2008 soon too and i don't know if that works better on one than the other. i have enough problems with my old-ass version of office as it is...*sigh*...computers are annoying me lately. i'm still not using the new email system...(shhh) posted at 7:29 PM | 4 comments

computer acts up, i run the malware remover, it tells me the bad stuff is gone, computer is fine for a day or two, then the cycle repeats.

obviously this isn't working. posted at 11:29 PM | 0 comments

i'm feeling so overwhelmed at work these days...it's not even that i'm stressed and have a bunch of things due at the same time...i don't. it's just the number of things that i have to work on. and they are all jumbled up - no particular schedule to follow. i just have to find time to get them all done whenever they happen to surface. and on top of that, our company just switched to a new email system that i hate. and i didn't know that i would hate it and i didn't know that i would be able to sneakily continue to use thunderbird by changing the server, so i had signed up to participate in a small study that one co-worker is doing on the use of peer to peer help or some shit like that - basically, those of us who are participating are supposed to be helping each other learn how to use all the different features of this email/calendar system, rather than what everyone else in the company is doing (calling the help desk). so we are supposed to be on skype all day discussing the damn email software. but i am still using thunderbird because some techy guy told me i could (though it's kind of hush-hush and i am probably not supposed to be doing this) and i like thunderbird sooooooo much better. and i'm too busy with all my other work to even pay attention to what is going on in the skype chat that was running all day. so, if they do remove thunderbird from all our computers, i'll be kinda screwed because i haven't even been paying attention to all the helpful hints that this little group is supposedly providing...

i don't have enough brainpower to handle all these different things at one time - all my projects, the new email system, this study that i'm supposed to be participating in, my screwy computer at home (fingers crossed that it's all clear this time), my mom making me drive her around everywhere...not to mention all the things i have been putting off for myself (cleaning, haircut, vacation!!!)

i'm tired. i hardly slept last night - didn't know why at the time but i suspect it was all of these things i just listed! i need a break. posted at 7:29 PM | 0 comments

browser working again. i am so confused. how do viruses just appear at random? i literally just did a thorough scan a few hours ago and had nothing. then did a quick scan again after my browser got all crazy and it found a bunch of trojans...i didn't click on or download ANYTHING in between the two scans...i just don't understand what is going on here!!!!

anyway. too tired to write an actual update now. maybe tomorrow, if my computer's still working. posted at 12:22 AM | 0 comments

i don't know WHAT the hell is going on with my computer. browsers won't work again - i managed to get on through aol right now, but who knows how long this will last? i'm completely annoyed and frustrated... posted at 11:45 PM | 0 comments