i feel like i've been neglecting this blog...as with many other things in my life, i suppose.

caught a mouse last week. i am hoping there aren't more of them around...i should probably set up another trap just in case though, huh? sometimes i just don't want to know...

anyway, i was just thinking how i miss being a kid and actually liking and being surprised by presents i got for my birthday and/or christmas. sometimes, i just want a nice surprise, a nice gift that i actually love. no one ever gets me anything good anymore...well, it's basically only relatives that get me stuff. and my relatives are mostly cheap and/or don't really know me well enough to know what i'd like. that includes my parents apparently. oh, i just remembered - there was the tivo i got a couple years ago. that was a rare good and non-cheap gift from a family member...especially after i found out that a year's subscription was included. i know i bitched about it initially. now i can't live without it. (although i kind of blame it for making me watch a lot more tv than i should.) but yeah...to get a gift like that is very rare.

i kinda wonder sometimes if i had friends who got me stuff, what they'd get me. is that a weird thing to wonder about? i think when i was 21 or so, one friend got me a necklace. it was really pretty, i still have it actually...i don't think i ever wore it, but i still like the idea of it. i guess i'd like to have someone to exchange gifts with now as an adult...i used to like getting gifts for people, taking the time to find something that they'd like. if there was anyone that i cared about much now, i'd still like doing that for them. i just wonder if they'd get something nice for me too, or if i'm just impossible to shop for. if it's the latter, that would explain the lousy gifts i generally get. posted at 10:05 PM | 0 comments

i'm so exhausted...i don't know when i'll get myself to actually accomplish anything. i need to set mini-goals for myself. i feel awful about things right now...so frustrated with myself... posted at 11:54 PM | 0 comments

so that redness on my nose? it continued to get darker and darker. by the next day it was a very noticeable bruise. i tried to cover it up with makeup as best as i could, but that just made it start to peel, which in turn made it look even worse. it was pretty much at its peak ugliness on the day of the wedding - i'm hoping the makeup hid it well enough, though i'm sure it was still somewhat noticeable. it's still kind of red now. but much better than it was over the weekend.

anyway, i mostly hung out with this one girl who i haven't seen since i was 10 or so...but she was really nice and her date was funny, and some of the bride's other friends who we shared a table with were nice as well. so i didn't feel as lonely and uncomfortable as i thought i might...most of all the bride was very happy that i came, so i'm glad i went. we were inseparable for much of elementary school (at least, the parts i choose to remember). i hope i'm as happy as her some day, whether it be on my wedding day or not.

right now, i am trying to use a sephora gift card before it expires (midnight) but it's not working. so annoying. posted at 11:12 PM | 0 comments

i'm so not packed yet. i don't know what i did all day. besides running from the mouse. i did have the most uncomfortable eyebrow threading yet. i swear, women who do that for a living need to keep their nails short. i really didn't apprectiate having her finger nails digging into the bridge of my nose. it's still red, hours later. she also got really close to my eye a few times and she should have seen from the expression on my face and how i was pulling away from her that she was irritating me, but she kept doing it anyway! i even made her stop at one point because i couldn't take it - not sure what i said but i think it was "my GOD". but she still continued. i've never had such a painful eyebrow experience before. and that's including the time i got scratched by a ring that the woman was wearing. indians are so oblivious sometimes. she was probably pissed that i only gave her a $1 tip, but she should be lucky because i didn't want to give her anything. but the shaping was ok overall, luckily. i would have been really upset if i sat through that torture only to end up with fucked-up uneven pointy high-arch brows. posted at 6:27 PM | 0 comments

damnit. just spotted a mouse in my kitchen.

i thought i was all good after getting this one hole in a cabinet sealed, but apparently not. though i guess i shouldn't be surprised given how messy i have been lately...i suck, mice suck, this apartment sucks...i HATE this. posted at 2:27 PM | 0 comments

feeling overwhelmed again...leaving friday morning to go to a friend's wedding in LA. decided to take thursday off from work as well, because i know i'd be all stressed out if i didn't. have to figure out what to pack - unfortunately the weather is not cooperating with me. and i also want to get a haircut and get my eyebrows done, but i have a feeling i'll have to settle for just eyebrows. ugh. i just *know* i'm going to forget something. hate that feeling. but as i've mentioned several times, i seem to be having trouble remembering things lately. and my room is a mess, so i'll probably have trouble finding stuff i need in the first place.

i'm just feeling so unsettled right now. the bride mentioned something about setting up carpools to the wedding, but then i never heard back from her. and i'm not renting a car, and i don't know anyone else who'll be there, so...i have no idea how i'll get to the wedding right now. and did i mention the weather? it's going to be terrible. it hardly ever rains in southern california, but for some reason, it pours whenever i happen to be down there.

i need to get to bed - one more thing on the list: have to finish doing some qa for work first thing in the morning. i thought i'd finish it tonight, but my brain is too tired... posted at 1:05 AM | 0 comments

my horoscope today: "If you can convince yourself that you're about to experience -- and deserve to experience -- great things, you will actually have the power to make them happen."

i've been trying to convince myself of this for a while, but haven't been successful. so i hate it when i see it staring at me like that. posted at 10:15 PM | 0 comments